It wasn't until about 9 years ago that I began hunting. Growing up hunting was a man's sport, mainly for meat. My own father went hunting only every 2-3 years for a doe just to fill our freezer. He usually set out for his hunt in the morning and was back within a couple of hours where I assisted and watched in curiosity as we dressed the animal and cut and wrapped it for another long Canadian winter.
I understood what the concept of hunting was and was always raised to believe that God placed these animals on our earth to feed us so it never bothered me to see the dressing and skinning of an animal. Besides, I grew up on a cattle farm and the sight of butchering an animal was only another part of our annual routine.
It wasn't until my teenage years that I developed an odd fear to guns. Perhaps it was one too many episodes of Cops, or too many action movies? Anytime my father would grab is 30-06 to blast a shot or two into the sky to scare away howling coyotes, I would cringe, and had absolutely no reason to. I knew at a very young age that my fear of firearms was something I would have to overcome in my future.
Fastforward to my high school years which was when I met my high school boyfriend who is now my husband and father of my precious two kids. While dating, we discussed our hobbies and what we enjoy doing. I always enjoyed the outdoors, camping and fishing. When he mentioned to me that he loves to hunt, my stomache dropped. Not only did I have zero experience in the sport, I was so afraid of guns that I didn't know how to handle it. How on earth would this ever be something we could do together?
For years, hunting season came around and he would hunt for hours, while I sat at home...BORED out of my mind, somehow wishing I was with him out there. Something in me longed to be a part of it. It was unexplainable the unsettled feeling I got of wanting to go along and experience the outdoors right along with him. He would share the stories of things he saw, witnessed, and the gorgeous animals he tagged and I sat wondering if that was something I could really witness myself?
Nine years ago, my hubby offered to show me how to shoot his gun. Here was my chance to face the greatest fear I had, shooting a rifle for the first time. At first, I said NO but he of all people knows me so well, and he sensed my curiosity and my urge to challenge myself.
He took me to the range, went through a complete lesson on gun safety to which I found quite impressive! When it came time to shoot, I clenched as hard as I could and I think my eyes were shut, heart pounding so hard I thought it would pop out of my chest. After a few laughs and another lecture about how to hold and shoot properly, I was ready! BOOM....the first shot to the rest of my life! I felt incredible. I felt powerful, accomplished, overwhelmed, and not scared for the first time in my life. My husband was beaming with pride as he showed me how close to the center of the target I was. "Sniper!" he called me which made me feel even more successful. Not only did I overcome the greatest fear I had, but I HIT THE TARGET!!!
After that first shot, I challenged myself that fall to tag my first buck! Another unbelievable milestone for me! It was an unexplainable feeling of accomplishment and love for the outdoors that made me realize this was my long lost passion! And somehow I think my heart was always trying to tell me that. As I began to inspire others, especially women like myself, my love for hunting, nature, and the outdoors blossomed into something so much greater then I had ever dreamed.
That very day out on our little shooting range was the beginning to a whole new future to me. Once I was able to overcome that fear, I found myself purposly challenging myself, somthing this shy farm girlie girl had never done. It changed the way I lived my life, it completely defined who I was as a woman, and it was that very "BOOM" moment that formed my future of professional hunting on television. I now film and hunt along side my amazing husband and best hunting partner a girl could ask for. He believed in me from day one and has been such an inspiration to me.
I work hard every day to inspire others, especially women and youth, who may have the same feeling or thoughts that I once had. I am blessed to have the opportunity to share my hunting and outdoor experiences with you all. Knowing that I have made a difference in someone's life is the most rewarding feeling :)
Face your fears, it may be the beginning for you!
Shelly Kruger
Prostaff/TV host for Those Guys Outdoor Adventures on Wild TV
twitter- @shellykruger